March 2013
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Breaking Abstinence
So I have this pact to myself that I will not drink, smoke, or even hang out with friends this week. The philosophy behind it is that, I actually have been doing these things quite moderately on a regular basis, so since it’s Holy Week, I kind of want a different phase for a while. It’s really that hard when one is used to the the beautiful setting of eating lots and lots while the...
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She
She bursts in his life without any warning. If he had any chance to know, he would have sprayed a little shine on his hair today, or would have worn his best shirt. But instead, she comes along when his day is filled with bad morning coffees, and the oily face of tension. She stuns him like a bullet that hit the chest. Her sight is serendipity, but his feet is too tied on the ground, his lips feel...
There is a pavement from across the corner, and what I feel is written all over it. I have to admit, I make the wrong choices, I decide the bad turns that they might cause me. I have tried to tell a story about pain, I have wanted it to be put into words brick by brick. But I may be the man who can write my verses in cursive curses, but I cannot ever draw the melancholy that time can only subside....
Name
I want to discern every letters in your name. I’m interested in the spaces between the float of the diacritics in its characters. I want to know what lies beneath the surface of its concrete. I want to see the composition of every sound, and as to why it triggers an exact computation of emotions in my head. The travel in the airwaves, and its lingering shock upon reception. What are the...
Deadly Conduit
I don’t feel like myself lately. It’s been two weeks and I can’t seem to function the way I usually do. I think I can count the factors, but I could not figure out how to runaway from this labyrinth. It’s a vicious cycle, and at some point I’ve got to push the pressure back so I can breathe clearly in the coming days. Damn.
February 2013
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Attempt.
Ask me what do I know about love, and I might never know how to answer it. It’s that abstract for me. I only know what it does, keep us happy, or make us feel sad. I just think that people suddenly have that ‘you’ in their mind, when they hear about love. What is it, other than complete this certain space in our existence? What is it other than pile up thousands of explosions...
If I'm alive, that is.
I like you because you know how arrogant I could become. You know it could be the death of me, nevertheless it remains as a part of my strength. My credit is too bad for you, but then there you are. Singing me a song when my skies have fallen. Your voice, shattering the spaces in our distance. The soothing words you bring, eccentric. I like you because you know my reasons for my wrongs, and...
Itch
Is that sensation that drives you to a stimuli. To act towards something, naturally. Itch is when I envision your face, and I sing a song. Itch is when we stay up all night, talking, and I’d never want to fall asleep. Itch is when I wake up in the morning, yearning for your hello. It is that something that hits me, and bring me to an involuntary response. Like when you look at me, and I can...
Divine
I’ll grab a camera and take pictures of you. In candid, you remain to be the most beautiful thing I know. You’re most glamorous when we sit face to face in your bed, without any make up on, you are my galaxy of gorgeous. You’ll ask me which photos I admire the most, but I’ll never say a word. Your kiss is electric, but an eternal capture of you, will forever be ecstatic....
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These girls, they don’t compare to you. Most of the time, they’re smart, and pretty. But I look into their eyes and feel nothing. Most nights I get myself drunk and think about your latest text, the last time I saw you, the last moment I held your hands in mine. Most of the time, on my way to my world in school, on my way to my own world at home, I hope for your touch, the smell of...
Violins and ballads
This afternoon the sunset was fucking beautiful. I feel like I am living a good life. A question popped in my mind though, and I don’t seem to have figured out an answer. Do I fear death? I have fears that are related to death, however I do not think if I fear death itself. I think that death itself is self explanatory. Why fear something I could not prevent? It will have its time in my...
Showing my black ass, it's a black out.
So this day ended pretty well. It was very fun when I started it! A little drop of drama though. But it’s less than quarter to February 5, so technically I am hours away from a new day, so voila smile up bitches! I have a feeling that tomorrow’s gonna be a hell of a fun because I will write research papers and a thesis proposal all day and I do not even mean that sarcastically....
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone.
Today is when I intentionally submitted a mediocre thesis proposal. I honestly had the time to do it, and that I am intellectual enough to make changes on the obvious stupidity I have written before, but it is just that, when I woke up today, I felt like I am not prepared for anything. It was the same scenario as yesterday when I attended school for the first time again. I have been gone from...
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Teenage angst
For me, there will always be that part when shit just got to break out. Fuck the manner of saying it, damn the decency. Just a fucking hard fist, a troubled mind, and there we go. Darn the fucking rules, some just need something to oppose. Somewhere deep inside, there’s a catcher in the rye. And the glock fires out to the shade. Ambitions, life, and love. Let it tear us apart. Booze,...
January 2013
5 posts
Shockwave whispers
If I burn down a building for no reason at all, would they even suspect me?
If I kill society, would they solve my crimes?
If your stars outshines the rest tonight, will it bury my golden nights?
So if I stray my structured path once, will it vibrate the strings of mankind’s fate?
If I put the norms in my custody, do I have a plane ticket for the world’s massacre of reality?
To...
Guts and glory
Aim.
I guess that’s my motto from now on. I should always go for what I want. I realized that it seems to be the best way to live life.
Get what I want. Get what I want.
Insist on having it, and never let anything or anyone stop me from doing so. Especially, never let myself stop me.
Fear will be defeat crawling on my spine. Most of my decisions will be horrible mistakes, but I must...
Pancakes and strawberry ice creams
Most days you’re just as stubborn as a diamond. While most of the time you become the most clumsiest person you know. You whine all the time about the little problems that come along the way, and you get hungry so often that you could eat a boar to its bones. All these, as if I could never figure out your game of damsel in distress. But for some reasons I do not know, you always look pretty...
Beautiful People
2012 was kind of significant for the the Mabesa family, pretty much because of our dear and lovely lola whom we will always love and pray for, and lolo too of course :) Anyway, what follows are glimpses on what transpired in the recent year for us. But before that, check this out!
From three fucking years ago :)
Haha. Hilarious, I say.
Carrying on, here goes
Then two weeks...
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Through all my talk of self defeat, a fearful bomb...
I will probably die by my own sins. At least that’s what I could tell. For some reasons, at least once in our life we wished that we will have a painless death, that is to sleep ourselves safely to the other zone. In about a million of moments, I thought of that as well. Truth be told, dying painlessly does not happen that easily. Now is that not ironic? While some people chose their death,...
December 2012
3 posts
TBS
So I skipped ROTC again, for the second time because I am fucking tired. The truth is this morning I feel fucking frustrated because I can only skip ROTC for the last time next time that I do. Anyway, for the last two days I have been out of the metro attending a summit of Sociology majors in UST, a.k.a. Team Building Seminar, and actually it is my first time in three school years because I do not...
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So last night I dreamt of an absolutely perfect woman and her name is Emi Takei :)
And she happens to star in the movie I watched last night, Rurouni Kenshin which was spectacular by the way, so if you have not watched it yet I am telling you it is worth the wait and the money!!!
Anyway, I could not get my eyes off her despite the scenes getting so intense because I really find her divinely...
November 2012
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Complacent career student
In my third year of college, I skip classes to learn by myself. Unlike the systems in other universities, the academic administration in my school sets our schedule for us and chooses our subjects for us. They ask us to allot time for shit they think we’ll learn from, thus our curriculum is as boring as it sounds. I think maybe it is normal, considering that the faculty I belong to is the...
October 2012
6 posts
Pale broken wings
You’re just too tired from the sky which is too blue. Don’t do it for anyone else, just smile for yourself. A candle lit up inside, totally incompatible with a splendid, bustling party. Sometimes in this world, when we try to walk ahead, it’s a little too bright isn’t it?
The more we get older, the more social responsibility we hold. Basically because we tend to meet more...
The 12th
Slender and youthful, she has green eyes and black hair with slightly parted bangs and is pulled back into a long braid. Her expression is almost always melancholic, and it is rare to see her smile or show any real joy in her distinctive green eyes. Her uniform consists of a short black kimono that extends to mid thigh with a white nagajuban under it. The sleeves of her kimono are not as wide, and...
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Fall time
For a while, I thought nothing must matter.
But then again, I look into their eyes and I find mine different from theirs.
It is awful. Like this is an instance when someone just badly want everything right.
I say, what do we have to offer anyway? If bloods can spill, then why bother?
Who the fuck dictated the norms anyway.
This one is so fucking inadequate.
Get lost in thought, but then...
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The broken song of the cadaver
Even film directors do not die a cinematic death. I hope someday you will remember the time I told you that. In between the slow moment of the submission of brightness to the night, our footsteps troubled the ground. I have never seen the universe break until you showed me how it could. I have always believed in the power of my fist, but you built a wall I could never break. Now that you ask, ever...
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September 2012
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I call the shots, I am the umpire.
Too many attacks. I feel like drifting away. I hate the fact that people bought the dream and sold me one. Fuck this shit. This one’s for the books.
Courageless
bmyserendipity:
So I was here. Beside you. Just in case one day you’ll need me. That instance when you’ll look for me again. In the moment when I’m not there anymore. I just need you to know that I was here. And that I tried. And that it didn’t matter who you were before me. Who you are for other people. I was here. Beside you. Because you needed me back then. But one day fate will figure it...
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Your chick she so thirsty
With your girl, she’s tryna jerk me
So I’ve been waiting so long for this album to come out, god know how many times I’ve visited kanyewest.com just to hear the singles he released from this album! I’ve downloaded it last night, and hell fucking yeah for this awesome Sunday! I mean YMCMB records are good, but shit Kanye and G.O.O.D. music massacred the rap scene with...
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Daiquiri shots
Yes! I don’t know what’s up with that mobile bar’s mix for daiquiri but I liked it! Haha never had myself enough for last night!
Okay, yes, speaking of last night, hey I went to Maxine’s debut! Actually she’s a sister of one of my closest friends named Ren. I can’t believe time flying by so fast! She’s 18 already!
The food was good! And really really...
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Lights please, lights please, turn off the lights
Come to think of it, I am really afraid of thinking that much about the future.
I love us talking about our middle aged selves.
Or growing old together.
It comforts me.
But I’ve always been so scared when you speak of the nearest possible reality.
Thinking about us that far is too much torture.
A month from now. A year. A decade.
It awakens the ghosts of my insanity.
Perhaps...
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Binge Eating
So the other night I went to this house party, and I think all I ever did was eat. Yes. All I ever cared about was to sit and eat to the point I’ve ran out of social skills.
Well, I’m the usual indifferent me in parties or at almost everything, but yeah this time I had a reason not to care about anything, eat. Haha!
But I did some stuff too. Like played a bit of beer pong. But of...
August 2012
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You might as well be proud of last place
Today’s a big time bummer. Well actually this week is. The only good thing about this week was that I get to sleep all the way yesterday, and watched some tv series I liked. Anything up to that point was just a blur. Today I had to prepare my own breakfast for the fucking nth time again. The next morning I’ll wake up without any breakfast to eat I will seriously fucking burn our goddamn help. I’ll...
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Bed sheets
My arms locked your body to mine. The time’s value increased. It was a beautiful afternoon. Heck, any afternoon would be beautiful with you. There we were together, twisting the very fabric of reality. When you left your palms left a damp on my shirt, I dreaded the minutes that faded it away. I watched it with my memories of you from the day. There plays a song, and your skinny legs are...
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