schizophrenia town

Hi. This is us two years after we graduated from highschool. Lots have changed. But we managed to still look like highschoolers, perhaps that’s why the Angelicum highschool imbeciles taunted us when they saw us laughing at them because they look stupid. Haha. STC Fam Day was a great day bonding with my old friends, too bad the kada is not complete. And yes, if before we were the ones lurking around and having fun with girls or whatever stuff, this time we’re the ones looking out for our younger siblings. Fuck life :/

Go with him. Just go. Because he loves you more than me. I still like you, but whatever, if he loves you more, just pick him instead of me.

All I wanted was to be happy. I just needed a girl who’s faithful to me, and will love me for everything that I am. But I didn’t know, that what I wanted will not be mine after all. I didn’t know that life is full of disappointments. What you cant have is the one you’ll have to let go. I’ll let you go, before we pass the euphoria stage, because I’ve learned that all good things we ask for only comes in the beginning. Every girl I’ve ever had breaks my heart and just leaves me sad.

Maybe we’ll be together again someday, that day we both have realized that we’ll be happier on the other side. I’ve got the devil in my heart, just go with him. Don’t take chances, when your romance is important to you.

Just.

Goodbye, Anna.

yelo yelo anak 

If I’d get a chance to hook up, it’d be you

You’re not really my type, but I’d be glad to kiss you

Wherever you want it, on the countertop,

on the couch, or birthday suit in the beach

Sweetie, I bet your lips are as sweet as peach

I might not want to know you,

but I just gotta dance with you

Let’s forget him or her for a while

This heat’s getting a bit vile

Your skin is so soft and smooth

why don’t we go over the kissing booth

So why don’t we just make out and get undressed

With a body like that, I’m more than impressed

So lemme..

Hook up with you, hook up, up, up 

Look I just want to take you with me to the stars

you’re mine, im yours, this moment’s ours

I’ve always liked a girl with that smile and eyes

Darling, you just keep me getting mesmerized

You got something I get lifted up over and over

Whenever you’re near, I cant differ if I’m sober

You’re not really my type

But you just got something I cant deny the hype

So yeah, if I’d get a chance to hook up it’d be you

I might just want to know your name 

I might just want you mine tonight

But I swear I’ll never be sleeping tight

If I’ll never get the chance to hook up with you

So I’ve been listening to lots of indie music tonight. And I don’t know, I was suppose to blog something about one night stands, but this is what I got from myself.

Tell me where’s your hiding place? I’m worried I might forget your face. 

- Arctic Monkeys

What makes you float?

What are your hobbies that make you happy? Who are the people that draw smiles on your face?

It’s ironic that happiness doesn’t last as much as the negative feelings there are. It’s cliche in life that you’re not supposed to stay happy all the time. Always, and always you’ll find yourself challenged after every euphoria that’s setting in. 

Eventually, you will have to drive yourself back to the world. No happiness is your life. Like what Lebron said “At the end of the day they have to wake up tomorrow and have the same life that they had before they woke up today. They have the same personal problems they had today.”.

At the end of every things we do to be happy, eventually we’ll have to face reality again. We can’t rejoice for the rest of our lives because our favorite team won the NBA championship, we can’t stay high on drugs forever, we can’t always be carried away by  our favorite songs, books, and movies, we can’t/shouldn’t have orgasms all the damn time, we can’t hang out with the people we love forever long, all the time; because just like them, you also have a job to worry about, an international economic crisis that will affect your budget again and again, a body that’s biologically dependent on you, people watching and waiting for you to fail in life, and other stuff that reality has to offer. 

So that’s the difference between kids, and well, grown ups. Life’s complicated, we just need to move along with it. Yet, it’s the hardest thing for some of us to accept.

Other girls are boring. Well, they just are.

I remember back when I was 13, and I was really flirty with girls. There was this time when I was playing relationship-relationship with this girl, which at first doesn’t feel weird until she started saying I-love-yous, Take care my love, and stuff, and I’m obliged to say Oh I like you very much too, you take care too. Hugs, and hugs, and playful winks. Then one time, something dawned on me, and then suddenly it felt weird for me. I stopped flirting with that girl, and went on with my life with other girls. Eventually I was drugged in the cycle, fully aware of my fear of commitment. That, eventually was my life for little years, until I cant remember their names and faces anymore.

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