Swimming through sick lullabies, choking on your alibis.
Oh, hey look what I found in my Multiply account :D I had to remove the emoticons, and stupid dots, ahe.
I really can’t recall who I wrote this for, which I really I feel terrible about. Sorry girl, can’t remember.
And you can’t hold his hands, because your hands can only fit perfectly to mine. And you can love his eyes, but they will always be different from mine that can see right through you. And you can wrap your arms around his body, but no one else can embrace you to safety, to bind you with the love you need like I do. And his words could be the sweetest, but none of them can mean much love, the way I mean mine.
And you can choose him to be the one to walk with you along your life’s road. And you may picture him for a thousand times in your head, but you know I will always be a memory. And you can keep holding on to him right now, but you know his sweet face will one day walk away. When the holiday romance is over between the two of you, you’ll find the time we shared together golden.
Telling you that I’ll stay feels like chasing a shadow, shooting for the stars, but I’m letting you know that I will anyway. Because I know, true enough that I’m the man you’ll keep finding for. The one you wish will catch you when you fall.
I honestly can’t feel any pain, if this is you wanting me to go through jealousy. You know I am better than the insecure boys you’re used to. I know I can be better off with someone else, but right now I only choose you. I can enjoy other girls’ company, those who deserve me more, but I don’t mind being this masochistic for you. Pretty much because you’re the only choice I have right now. Still better than how I am just an option for you. Fair enough.
So go, drool over him. Fall in love with him. Let him bring his best shot. Heh, as if.
I can make terrible mistakes, I can make you cry, and it’s not always we’ll share laughters. Girl, you know I am not perfect, but so is he.
Hi 15 year old Derik Tabunar, I’m your almost going to turn 18 self, and hey you were so much dumb before, and I like it. You stupid fuck, way to go. :-bd